Your Life is not a Bank Account!

I initially posted this on my 2nd blog, (believe-ability.blogspot.com) But then decided it was worth posting here as well.....

Your life is not a bank account!!!!!

I'm not an MD or have a PhD (yet) so I don't want to delve too deeply into symptoms of a brain injury. All I can share is my own experiences. However, to the best of my knowledge, anxiety is a common problem with anyone having experienced any type of neurological injury. The brain processes differently. It doesn't self-calm or reason as smoothly or quickly as a healthy brain might.

This life lesson is one of the more recent lessons that I have learned. Along with the anxiety, is perfectionism, over-thinking/a need to control. It used to be that at the end of the day I would "total" the days events in my head. Like I would balance a checking account. Deposits for time spent in prayer/scripture reading, serving someone else, exercise, etc. Withdrawals for wasted time, wasted opportunities, something unkind.... (though truthfully while I am not perfect I can't think of many unkind actions, sometimes I may be "too " kind, but anyway.....)

I would average the amounts in my head- I don't remember what I would think on a day when I had a high balance, but on days when I didn't feel I had much "money left in the bank" I would think along the lines of "I messed up a lot today. I'll try again tomorrow."

The moral of this story- life is not a bank account! Yes, our choices count, our actions contribute, but don't forget that simply "being who you are" counts equally as much. There is intrinsic value and worth in your thoughts, your smiles, your attitude, etc.

So, what is life, then? Frankly, I don't know a universal answer but here are four things important to me.
1-An evolving, real, relationship with God and in his gospel
2-Meaningful relationships with family and friends (it doesn't have to be a lot, just some)
3-Taking care of physical and mental/emotional needs
4-Pursuing your dreams without fear and hesitation

If you have a "bank account" of your own, I hope you are able to close it out, as well and find more enjoyment in everyday life. I have.